Hrvati u Irskoj – ne vracajte se!!!

Dragi moji,

…koji boravite u zelenoj Irskoj, kojima možda nedostaju roditelji i prijatelji; sunce i domaća hrana – ne vraćajte se!!! Sigurno ste se sad nasmijali, jer se niti ne namjeravate vratiti. Ja vas razumijem. Da sam otišla u vrijeme kad je Hrvatska ušla u EU, niti ja se ne bih vratila. Barem nisam imala u planu. Pisala sam o razlozima zašto sad s obitelji živim u domovini (tekst možete pročitati ovdje) i ne mogu reći da žalim zbog te odluke, jer da je tako spakirali bi se i sami otišli; no poanta ovog posta je kako se doma ništa ne mijenja… Osim možda na gore. Nema pomaka. Nema posla,a nema perspektive…

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Testimony of Faith and Healing / Svjedocanstvo o bolesti, molitvi i ozdravljenju

Testimony of Faith and Healing

The story I want to share with you is not just about happiness, but it is the testimony of the disease, faith, struggle, and healing.

Until a year and a half, I had a very sketchy criteria what should happen to make me feeling satisfied in any way. I had had decent living conditions. After seeing my boyfriend couple of years, we have decided to move up, so we got married and decided to become PARENTS. No one couldn’t be happier than us when we found out I was – PREGNANT!

rsz_red-school-blur-factoryWe have had a small, comfy house (in our ownership). The finance was solid. Our relationship was great. We had everything we needed for a happy life. Only I missed job. I am extrovert and need to be around the other people. So in that way I couldn’t find the way toexplore my possibilities. I moved from town to a village (because my husband got a job here, and I didn’t work at that time after getting back from Ireland). So there weren’t desirable job offers near the place we live. As I am curious and have a restless spirit, I keep thinking I might miss something. So it looks like I took some things for granted. Obviously I wasn’t grateful all the time and I should. I was wondering should we go to work and live abroad, or get back to town, etc.

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Kad se osjećaš poput outsidera (selo-grad kombinacije)

Dragi moji,

city-restaurant-lunch-outside

o mnogo čemu razmišljam ovih dana. Na tisuće misli mi prolazi moždanim vijugama… tražeći da ih prožvačem, proradim i, onda, prihvatim ili odbacim. Nekima sam oduševljena…drugima, pak, zgrožena; no ako ne odradim taj proces selekcije; imam osjećaj da ću se rasplinuti, razlomiti…

Osjećam kao da svaka misao ide u svom pravcu i to u meni stvara ogromnu zbrku. Kao da imate jednu veliku prometnicu na kojoj automobili voze lijevo – desno, naprijed-natrag. Nakon nekog vremena čujete pomahnitale zvukove sirene (jer se nitko, naravno, ne želi sudariti) i želite pobjeći iz tog kaosa i ludila; zabrinuti za vlastiti život, jer nema pravila koje bi slijedili i koje bi vas štitilo od “prometne nezgode”. Tako Vam ja vidim ovaj svijet.

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